I am border-line sick. You know that place between I feel great and I feel like I'm going to die and can't leave the bed? Yea, I'm there.
It's just a head cold and a sore throat but it's wiping me out. And, mommy's don't get sick days. Not that I don't have a wonderful husband who wouldn't allow me to stay in bed if I were deathly ill but I'm not. And that leads to mommy guilt.
I'm not sick enough to dump the work load on Kirk but I don't feel well enough to mentally deal with the kids. The constant screaming because someone stole a toy or someone else hit their head or stubbed their toe - it's draining.
And the physical work of being jumped on, clung to, pulled on, sat one, pinched and shoved. I just cannot imagine having twice this at once let alone twice this plus twins plus 6 other kids. That new octuplet mom thinks she has it bad now - she ain't seen nothing yet! Regularly someone is asking me to pick them up - usually Rachel - so that I will read her the book she wants or draw her the picture she wants.
It's exhausting and today I just don't have the patience or voice to deal with it!
I hate complaining - I do but I feel like sometimes I have to write it down so that someday I can look back and remember the hard times too. And so I have proof that when I'm asked if it really is harder to have 3 kids at once and I smile and sigh and say, "yes, yes it is" and walk away knowing at least someone else has heard my pain!!
On a different note I'm not sure if I shot myself in the foot with this or not but the girl's got Play-Doh for Valentine's Day (yes, the store bought kind because I'm sorry I'm just not that crafty mom who makes their own). They LOVE it. Had a great time just sitting around playing with it. Takes up a good hour of our day.
Yes, I know they need haircuts - it's on my to-do list along with a few hundred other things!!
2 Corinthians 12:9-10: "But he said to me, 'My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness.' Therefore I will boast all the more gladly of my weaknesses, so that the power of Christ may rest upon me. For the sake of Christ then, I am content with weaknesses, insults, hardships, persecutions and calamities. For when I am weak, then I am strong."
I know things could be a lot worse then my struggles but today they seem hard so your prayers are appreciated :)
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